The Pain Inside

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The tears fall, and the pain aches my heart
What happened to us? We were supposed to be forever
I gave you my heart and you gave me your ass to kiss

I was faithful, and you pushed me away
constantly seeking the love of other women
Sweet conversations, Sexting, Messaging

You found comfort in them
Even though you had it all in me
Time and time, you would hurt me

And I let you, One, day he will change I said,
I waited week after week month after month
Year after year, then finally I realized you didn't want to change
It was not mistakes but choices you had made

To break my heart over and over again
 So, who am I to allow this? I am Queen
I can't settle for this peasantry, even though I love you so
This pain is so surreal, and I can't believe that we are here

TPO's and court dates, divorce on the way
And I can't stop it!! I love you and gave you my heart
And You gave me your ass to Kiss

I showed you the world of consciousness
So, you could awaken gain knowledge and take care of your soul
Instead you used the knowledge I gave as a tool
One to pull your women of interest in

They heard you and thought you were so clever
Little did they know it was me speaking to them through you
My words, your vessel, You, figured out how to manipulate
How to masquerade, how could I be mad?

Karma had returned and once again bit me in my ass
Only this time I was evolving and learning to love me for me
I dug deep within and settled within my soul
I vowed that never again would I allow someone to ever have this much control

I loved you with all my heart but this pain inside
Got me feeling some kind of way... I'll get over you one day
Forget the memories we made and the time we shared, but right now
The pain inside is real and remains.... DAMN!


I digress

Copyright © 2018 Queen Kenya

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