Part II Evolution of {My} Self

 

After my season of Maum meditation I realized how much I had been holding on to, since my childhood. Like most, but not many, I have experienced many emotional and physical traumas in my childhood that lead to great blockages and tensions within my body. By the time I had started these meditations I was in my early 30’s. Prior to this time I recieved clinical counseling and therapy regarding my traumas.

At one point in my life as a teenager I thought to end my life by taking a bottle of Tylenol pills. Luckily I was unsuccessful. My stomach was pumped and yet I remained. Anyways, I begin to feel as an adult that just maybe there was a purpose and reason for my existence. So, that became my focus to become the best version of me ever. What did that look like?

I had no clue honestly, but I knew Spirit (source of Life) could and would guide me. I began to read more about quantum physics and the study of alchemy. I mean random books and videos along with a plethora of information just seemed to find me at all the right times. Actually I had learned that when the student is prepared the lessons will show forth and the teacher will appear. Well life had become my teacher and the materials were being provided by the universe.

I happened upon studies and practices of Deepak Chapra, books like The Seat of the Soul, The Alchemist, Black Orchid Night and The Butterfly Ball by Hal Manogue. I had become an avid reader and my choice of reads were leading me further into this journey of self discovery. Why is this information important to you? Because I want to show you there is no blueprint to this thing in life called self evolution. Every journey is unique and although I may shed some light on some material that may be useful to you, the goal is to show you that there is a path designed specifically for you.

As you take the necessary steps to make you better and evolve the universe will provide you with the specific tools needed for your soul. I love sharing my journey with others because I am a natural healer, lover, giver, and nurturer. I honestly feel that even this is a part of my purpose. That is why in this season I have committed to doing it! My readings lead me to people who led me to greater experiences and exposures. Soon the study of the occult life became prevalent for me. I began to study and live by the moon cycles. Holding space for full moon rituals. I began to release and clear energy and former programmed mindsets within me during these times.

I embraced Orisha rituals and practices. I also embraced my own divine lineage of occult voodoo practices as it pertained to my growth. I’m a native of the city of New Orleans, LA. So Papa Legba along with Marie Laveau had become quite prevalent for my venture and self discovery as well. Now I know you’re probably thinking, hey sounds like she was a little bit all over the place. I’m laughing and smiling as I type this.. Because I was, but that is my journey. As I said before I was being guided and mind you this happened over time, in and out of seasons.

I realized that as I transformed spiritually, mentally and emotionally my body did as well. My diet changed. I began to eat differently, more clean as some would say. I was alkaline for a time, vegan, vegetarian, pesactarian. Currently I have not eaten beef or pork for 25 years, I stopped in 2000. I say all this to say I believe our lifestyles also shift as we began to know ourselves more. We are able to decipher what our bodies need and don’t need a little bit more clearly.

I also exercised over all these years and still do. I have practiced mindful meditation, yoga, had gym memberships, walked nature trails, taken dance classes, etc. It has always been important for me to keep my body active. As I embraced my journey more I noticed once I hit 40 alot of things changed. Yes I’m telling my age, lol. I may as well just say it outright.. I’m 47. Blessed to have reached this number of divinity. As some would say it’s not important to name the years of existence, just exist. For some it is how we stay youthful, but just so you have a reference point with me I will share.

Health is Wealth and the mindset of one while on this journey of self discovery is important. As of late I have learned that my nervous system plays a major part in my journey as well. Vibration and frequency is what guides us and attracts us to the timelines (experiences) that are appropriate for us in and out of season. However, sometimes we seem to be stuck or not where we want to be. Don’t be discouraged, just get focused and realize where there’s a will there’s a way. You can change and shift your reality just by allowing the change to begin within.

My soul has always wanted to be aligned with the right course and path of life. So I’ve embraced many ways to achieve that over time. Mind you all this while living life, being a mother, sister, daughter, lover, wife etc. One of my favorite discoveries has been the role of divine feminine and masculine energy in my life as well as my being. Those studies included but were not limited to the principles of MAAT and Kemetic Egyptian literature. My latest discoveries also include the Mayan Calendar, my Galactic signature and how this system relates to me in my journey in this life. I am Kin 171..

Continued in the next Reading….