Dark Days

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There are times when life seems so dreary.. 
There are those who care, but it seems overwhelming... 
Their thoughts & apprehensions about your well being beget you
They loathe the idea of you embracing your darkness.

 They say you need to get away... take a vacay
Breathe and let go of all the depression
Well, if it was so easy it would be already done
Brighter days have come and gone, now this...

 Dark days rule and with less order 
They have become out of control 
No matter who you talk to or what you cling to...
Its obvious that whats happening was already written

 Yet why do I allow such?Am I really the villain?
Why don't I even quiver? I am over the hill
And the valley is ahead, the Mountain is in reach
Yet that destination is steep!

 I have never wanted to escape so much that I could taste it
Its sweet!  The silence, the quiet of the walls closing in on me
Where have I gone? What did I do with me?
Love is far gone and yet all I hear is I love you

 What has love got to do with it?
Emotions are but a feeling and that is what I do not want
I don't want to feel anything, I'd rather be numb
To the idea of my very own existence and cries within the dark

 Have I gone too far? Drifted into a place of the unknown 
Craving for the ultimate Spiritual one to Save me
God where art thou in this darkness?
If you are here I need to know for I no longer can sense thee...

 Dark Days are upon me

 Copyright © 2018 Queen Kenya




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