Letter to Pac (Tupac Shakur)

Dearest Fellow Warrior,

From the day I heard your voice I knew that my life had changed. Your voice spoke to my soul and then my heart. I was a 13 year old girl who had experienced unpleasurable pain. Molestation, abandonment, rejection, betrayal; a life I never expected. I had already escaped death three times; at birth with viral meningitis and then two electrical house fires. Yet I continued on because it was all that my spirit knew. I felt I was all alone until that one faithful day, when I heard this song called “Brenda’s Got a Baby”. I remembered how hearing you tell Brenda’s story reminded me of my own.

The strength in your voice gave me hope to carry on. I had to hear more from this new rapper that society had labeled a gangster. It began to make sense.. the path I was on and the one you were currently within. Although our lives were quite different they were one in the same. Parallel living is what we were experiencing. I began to realize that I knew you, well at least my SOUL did. We had an already preordained connection that was soulfully designed within our soul’s DNA. I knew you and you knew me. When your soul spoke to mine it sparked the connection that was destined to be.

Years went by and I watched you grow. You showed me that I could grow beyond the label the world would give me. I could be successful and still speak truth. I could have fun and still rep my city and that I could love Mama regardless of our history. You showed me that trust and loyalty was everything. You showed me that giving to my people in any and every way was worth much more then Hollywood and the Music industry finessing me. I begin to realize that I was becoming more like you. We were becoming ONE. I was finally realizing what love was when you professed: it was you against the world.

I was in high school maturing into a young lady; experiencing young love and having fun with my peers. Soon after, you declared all eyes were on you and you wasn’t mad at me. I felt you in every track . You spilled your soul in your lyrics and lived your life with love. Yet, you were no coward. You had the strength of a Lion King. Your eyes revealed the way to the path of your soul. You knew death was coming and you still lived life full speed ahead. You were determined to complete your mission; your very existence depended on it.

No matter what you were faced with you always stood your ground. You learned the way and gained true knowledge along the way. You sat in the face of the devil and maintained composure. You knew that you had already won. Many of the world had only heard of you, but soon they too would KNOW you by name. I began to feel closer to you realizing that you had become my guardian angel and lover all at the same time. Then it happened... You were pronounced dead. Your soul had transitioned to the next dimension and plane.

My heart sank into a deep place realizing I would forever be changed once more. I cried the tears of a widow for I had lost my husband and soulmate. The one who had fulfilled and touched my soul. The encouragement of you could never leave me. So I put my foot forward and continued to live life. Every time I wanted to feel you I would listen to your tracks. There were days when I could feel your spirit caress me. You gave me hugs and wiped my tears away. You encouraged me to keep keeping on. I kept going and years have gone by. Twenty two years have gone by Pac and I still miss you; I still feel you, I still hear you. Your spirit still encourages me while caressing me. I often reflect on how those 5 amazing years of us connecting changed my life! I will forever be grateful to the Universe for honoring our connection.

I will forever praise YHWH for blessing us both with life. I am grateful for your influence in my journey. Even now you still speak and remind me to stay on course encouraging me to be true to the call. Tupac, I love you and always will. Thank you for staying true to you and answering your call. You are a Warrior and Messiah to say the least. A master teacher through the art of life. Although many may not understand your path; those who have ears will hear. They will hear with their hearts and souls and know you too just as I have come to know you. I’ve grown to learn our love is one that had to be shared; for you were not just brought here for me. Your journey and legacy still continues on. I honor the divine in you.

One Love,

Peace King you are forever in my Heart

Soar On...

Love always, Queen Kenya